Dull feeling-ennui

What I feel recently is that I am lazy.Being asked what makes you feel so I reply everything.By nature I am lazy.I think I am often active on my exhibition or on my blog or on something new I like to start.However,other than the period I am active I mostly sleep to refill energy.I can regain my energy only by sleeping.In order to regain my creative ability I sleep and sleep and become lazy to do anything.Someone who sees only my active side thinks how powerful I am as I call myself “Super Powerful Artist”.But those who know me and my daily life think I am in middle of charging.I do not know but they say that I concentrate on activities so much.As such with my power and spirit I draw pictures and exhibition and that’s all.

But if I can wish a tiny bit of thing it is this:If there could be a communication between viewers and my pictures this is more than sufficient.I do not have any intention to tell anything.If I intend something am I insisting viewers to see my pictures in a way I want them to appreciate.

I simply like drawing.At the time when I finish drawing they are just pictures.If viewers feel somehting from my pictures that’s another thing.Above all, I don’t have anything to tell.Being lazy means…..

Helen Mirren  ヘレンミレン

Helen Mirren, British actress with who I have unforgettable memories.

Some 40 years ago I was working in London and became so much theatre goer or lover.I became a member of Royal Shakespeare Company and saw so many memorable plays and Hedda Gabler and Macbeth are those two.Helen Mirren is known as acting wild and acted wild Lady Macbeth in white dress.I could not forget one scene Lady Macbeth kept washing blooded(illusion) hands repeatedly and madly.

Time flied and I was in London again and excited so much to find her act Lady Macbeth again.As all seats were sold out I made a queue to get that night seat. Among those who were in the queue were related to the theatres.And I was told not to say ‘Macbeth’.If you say curse may be on you! I do not know really that this effected on me I had an accident.

That night It was raining and I was rushing to the theatre.Bus was delayed and could not get any taxi.I waited for both for about half an hour and at last bus came.The shortest way to the theatre is to get off the bus at Waterloo bridge bus stop and descend the stairs. I was in a hurry but on my way I fell down the stairs, jumped 12-13 stairs and stopped at the landing. This happened 30th October in the year of 1999, unforgettable day.

Oh I would like to tell that that wild Helen Mirren changed a Lady. No wonder she is a Dame.